Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Insight Three

"What is this beast that controls me when I do not think? It seems to know perfectly well what it is doing with my body and mind until it is questioned. How is it that I can sit and question what I am doing and why I am doing it, have no clear answer, and yet still keep going as if such questions are foolish? How is it that I can walk about looking perfectly busy while having no conscious idea what I do or why? This is the flesh, this is the idolatrous will, and it must be crushed by understanding." 7/26/12

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Insight Two

"There are different ways for us to understand a word-- if understand is the right way to describe it. When we do not think about them, words are simply emotional impressions. But when we think about the true meaning behind words, the actual name becomes less important as the meaning, and a whole new level of understanding emerges. We ought rightly think about words with understanding, rather than emotion. 

It's as if the emotional impression is contained within the word, but the meaning is buried underneath it, only availing itself to those who think about it."  7/25/12

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Insight One

I'm beginning a series of posts which illustrate the thoughts I've written about briefly in the past few years. It shall be called, "Insights". Here is the first one:

"Wise people come to find that it is not the defense of one's ideas before others that matters in life, but the correspondence of one's mental experience of reality with reality itself, and the correspondence of one's consciousness with his or her deeply believed experience of reality rather than indulgence in the passions or impressions of the soul. What others say, think, or do matters not.

Wise people also come to find that debate, conversation, and any dialogue which is not intensely and mutually empathetic necessarily goes nowhere towards mutual understanding. For when the person A says one thing, person B may in reality completely agree with person A's mental state, yet not perceive it because he or she is so taken with her perception of the words that A used and what they mean to her.  

What people say is not about what it means to us. It is about what they meant when they said it."  8/24/12

Monday, September 30, 2013


"All these things coming against me
I have the choice to fall or fight
I cannot be moved
You gave me the strength
Help me fight, help me fight"

--Haste the Day, "When Everything Falls"

Saturday, March 30, 2013

An Update

I find that I have two natures within my conscious experience: A shadow nature, and a true and real nature.

Truth is within my heart, yet my shadow nature suppresses and obscures it.

I find that all I need to live a life of goodness and truth is within my nature. Yet, now I find that I am not interested in finding the deepest parts of myself, for I am too interested in the shadows of my complacency; in the impulses of my lower nature.

How did such a being as me come to exist? Is it possible for nature to sculpt a creature whose deepest satisfaction is to drink deeply of being itself? I can't help but turn to God as the one who makes sense of all of this mess of me. But this "turning" is proving to be massively difficult, as I have multiple questions that need answering, and along with these questions are oppressive shadows determined to drag me down to desert truth, to desert my glorious nature, to dismiss reality.

An update-- that's my life right now.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Six Important Truths

These are six of the most important things I've learned in my life so far:

1. Human experience of reality is fundamentally mental, and thus all experience of the reality is constructed by the senses and mental interpretation.

2. The human mind consists of two basic natures-- the understanding (sense, or meaning) and the passions (non-sense). All human dignity consists in the mastery of the passions by the understanding.

3. Without the literal and concrete definition of terms in our speech and thought, we do not interact with reality, but with nonsensical impressions.

4. The love of truth and understanding is the essence of virtue and goodness, for the love of truth is the love of reality and the consequential harshness towards one's nonsensical passions. To be good is to live and will the truth. So, how do you become virtuous and good? By seeing things the way they really are.

5. Truth is a cognitive-spiritual relationship with reality itself. Reality is not known-- truth does not happen in its proper form-- unless it is known intimately and tangibly. This is not just the case with God, it is the case with all things the mind relates itself to-- such as people, the natural world, historical facts, personal facts, etc. This intimate awareness of reality is the proper form of truth

6. A few moment's intentional and realistic thought on a matter is enough to completely change one's disposition and perspective.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013


Today, I saw someone close to me in a lot of physical pain. I wasn't affected by it very much, because I couldn't fully understand it. I sat and watched, doing everything I could do-- which at the most amounted to sitting there and attempting to empathize with him so I could better help him. At the same time, I had the realization that pain in this degree exists all over the world-- and hospital services like the kind available now are not available in many parts of the world. Millions are suffering physical pain, and not to mention spiritual pain from lack of understanding.

Another reason to avoid living short-sighted.